Thought I would update anyone out there.
I am currently loving my life and still going slow but strong. I am at 156 lbs! Starting at 245 and a goal of 140 i have 16 lbs to go for my original goal but I am almost 100% certain that I will not be happy at 140. But I will have to recognize the effort that took me there once I am there.
I am still somewhere between a 10 and a 12 in clothes and have a goal of being an 8 I don't know if 16 lbs will get me there but I'll see.
I had some serious back problems a year ago and am still very worried about it and have had to stop Zumba classes because of it. I love Zumba but the possible pain and set back and cost it could do for me is not worth it. Mostly what I do is walk and walk and walk let me tell you my doggie loves it and so do I. I do jog and do different workout classes but not consistently so my weight loss lately is pretty much just diet based. It can be done.
I need to get into some strength training classes but they are intimidating as I know I am quite weak and I don't want to have to join an expensive gym and still not know what to do. I need to strengthn my back and my arms. I have lose skin on my upper arms that I am very ashamed of and would love to decrease. This is my next goal.
In other news my life has changed a ton this year! I have a new job doing something completely different and really liking it. I was drowning in my old job and was super unhappy so I am happy to be somewhere sane finally!
Its a fresh start no one at this job knows me at a bigger size so they think I'm just a normal person not someone who has lost a bunch of weight. I like this as this is who I am now and I am never going back to that girl!
I also have a boyfriend now! It is amazing! I never felt cute enough to date anyone I was attracted to so I dated people that I thought I was good enough for and so never really got close to them. Now I am finally at a place that I can attract a cute wonderful boy and am so happy about it. I'm sure there are tons of mental issues that I will need to deal with including self esteem that made me think this way forever but I'm working through it on my own and living my life and it can only get better.
I love reading all of your healthy living and weight loss blogs it gets me through sometimes knowing that I am not alone in all this. Thanks for blogging much better than me and sharing all your stories!
